"I cannot stop my tears from flowing down.My heart is tugging in such a deepest sadness and regretfulness.what have i done?...Oh Lord of the universe forgive me,I love you but i hold on my desires more than i hold your rope".
That is the pieces of jot from Leila's diary.The jot is saying about the sadness in Leila's heart for something that she was into.Leila have done something against her God without she realize it until something terrible happened to her.

One night,Leila went out with a man whom she just knew for a week.(A date i assume).the man took her to an outstanding restaurant for dinner.Leila was so much in love with him even she get to know him just like a little while ago.(ahh i know,that man is a seducer).After they ate their dinner,the man bring Leila to a nice place near the mountain and a beautiful view could be seen.Suddenly,while talking with Leila,the man started to hold Leila closely.She look at the man suspiciously,but then she carved a smile,"oh..He's romantic".Leila's heart whispered."Its good,dont be afraid Leila,he is just holding you,he loves you."another tiny voice whispered behind her ears.(i know its satan).
"Leila.. lets sit in the car,its cold over here,we can see the stars through out the window".The man said and Leila agreed.While watching the stars in the sky,the man touch Leila's hand with a lustful way and finally trying to do the "satanic" movement.Leila is shocked and trying to make him away and it seems like he started to force Leila by giving her a slap to the face to reduce Leila's strength to fight back.Leila is crying and shouting now,the man is trying to rape her.She manage to fight back again and get herself out from the car but the man chase her.Leila shouted" Help! helppppppppppppppppp...!"The satanic man manage to grab her.Leila shout again,"NOOOOOOOOOOOO..help meeeeeee."

Suddenly a man from no where(ha! i know a saviour),come."Dush!!!!..."he punched the satanic man.The satanic man is surprised!He run away.Leila is crying,and feel so much ashamed.(Lets call him the angelic man)(ok!).The angelic man have a blanket with him.He covered Leila's body and say"If only you didn't rape yourself first,surely that man wont dare to rape you...,come let me send you back to your home."The angelic man bring Leila to his house which is somewhere near the place to get a car and at the same time he asked his sister to accompany him to send Leila back home.

Leila is safe now,and already in her home.She did not stay with her family due to her work and desire which wanting to be free from family's guidance.Let us read,more excerpt from Leila's diary about this black tragedy in her life:

"I'm thankful to God,because He sent me that noble man to save me.After i arrived home,I could not think but crying.I feel so much ashamed and lost.The only thing which is playing around my mind is the words from the noble man,"If only you did not rape yourself first,the man wont dare to do rape you...".For three days i couldn't catch the noble's man wise words ,at last God opened my mind.

I'm sinful,dirty and far away from His love.Myself was pretty,with hijab.My family guide me goodly.But...for the sake of my desires i left everything behind and run after what my friends are into.I see everything as paradise,and the music of seducer caught me into reverie until i forgot the reality.I throw out my hijab,the one who protect my dignity and keep the priceless mystery within me where its always makes the men yearns to meet me with respect and honor.I am valuable for the mystery that i used to keep.... before.

Unfortunately, i choose to against my protector and exposed my beauty towards the animals which are hunting for foods.I changed my cloth into the seducer's cloth and let my body being raped by the animals' eyes.The voice on my left side said,"Let them see your beauty,but never let them touch you" and i obeyed the voice.My only desire is to hunt for a handsome and rich creature and then get married.I'm still with dignity even my desires is the worldly desires.I've been trapped with the tricks from God's enemy.I have raped my own self with my desires.I've sold my body to the animals without i could realize it.I tear the cloth called shyness into pieces and fulfill the tame less desires.What have i done...i started to think about my parent and siblings.If they knew what had happened towards me.Surely they will be disappointed.Its seems like,once i fall into sins the more sins will come.Oh.......Allah".(Leila,its suite your right,repent!)

©hettapiburger


Note:

In this story we have three 5 characters.They are:

Leila:The Victim of her desires
The story narrator:The one who wrote this story
The bracket gal:The one who become a busy buddy while the narrator is writing this story
exampleLeila,its suite your right,repent!)
The Angelic/Noble man:The one who saved Leila
The Satanic man: The one who wanted to rape Leila

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(The bracket gal says:Who allow you, the story narrator to read other people's diary?Huh??!!)
(The story narrator:eh..ehe...hehe.)

Its my art of writings,enjoy!(uhmm sorry for my english yet i must keep writing until i become good at it)

cheers!